The plushie and it's rightful owner is finally reunited <3



That man there is the reason why Jade's boyfriend has the same hair as the plushie. Elan has the same hair out of accident (he loved the spare one I bought for Elder that ended up not fitting Elder).

The plushie was made after Syfen's long time crush, Raleigh, who broke his heart in an alternate universe rp. Raleigh is my own personal character, and honestly I am not that fond of him as he's really an asshole who's just too dumb about dealing with others. I liked his childhood when everyone called him a monster though :B

Anyway, I think Syfen is my character who is most like me. Among all my characters, I think he's also the only one who's most forgiving of me^^; He was merely sullen and uncooperative when I allowed Raleigh to fall in love with someone they've just met (not that Raleigh had ever returned his feelings). In the end I couldn't give anyone new to him. He's just all "Mmm, that's nice *polite smile*" or "Okay, I don't mind keeping him company *polite smile*"

He just wouldn't be attached to anyone else on his own. Which is why I want to return Raleigh to him. Raleigh is such an asshole. He's poison and he hurts Syfen, but if that's what Syfen really wants, I guess he could have that. Possibly he'll be able to get through Raleigh's walls sometime soon.

But yeah. I can't blame him. I never wanted to let go of my own poison too. But meh. People choose what they want to do. You choose what you want to do. Others don't have to follow through with your choice. Four months and counting and I'm still stagnant like this :/

MADAM NOCEO I LOVE YOU THANK YOU FOR HELPING ME BRING THIS HERE BOY HOME T______T
HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD TIME IN MALAYSIAAAAAAAA

Yes, I'll go work on my homework now.

( Somebody has gotten a body <3 )

Sorry for the messy room pic, but I'm not free to clear up anytime soon at all at all >_<
Damn you shitty projects!!!

I'll comment more about the body later this week, and include some better pics. Hopefully his clothes would be here by then. He's wearing a bear knit shirt btw. He misses someone :< I misses someone too :<

btw, I bought a lizianthus bunch for the house last tuesday <3

Shysuiko is <3


Tonight gonna be so busy! T_______T

Raaah! cooking plans down the drain if I don't go to the market soon!!

Ideal : OMG. Pretty Faces ;-;

Reality : OMFG SO FUCKING HUGE AND HEAVY TAT

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So yes. I need to confess. I'm actually rather scared of getting SD bodies for my boys. HONESTLY other than the price, one of the reason I wanted to get a Bobobie body for Ika is because IT IS LIGHTER. T_____________T

I'm so scared that if I spend this money on Syfen/Ika/Makira's body, I'll have to come to terms with just how HUGE they'll be, and how heavy >_< Rawr.

Plus, because they'll be huge-er, they'll generally be harder to pose >_<
/flails.

Even my housemate agrees, that she thinks I might not like SD sized cos the hugeness. Damn you fuggers who only makes pretty SDs and not equally beautiful matured MSDs D;
I really want Syfen and Ika to be complete. I really still want a Bernard. I still want an Anais/Jun/Shirou/Tsukasa. But. So Expensive. So.... HUGE. Y_Y;

I think I need to come to terms with this once and for all (noooo T_T). I'mma get Syfen his bodeau (whut? ._.) and share it between the trio for a while. Then I'll see how I like it with their size. I'll probably like because sewing for them will be just a wee easier, what with the larger scale. Plus the clothes people sell for SDs are generally nicer (size-ism! D: ) And... well.

I still want a Dreaming Shiwoo, Dreaming Yder, Floy and... and.... T_T;

IMHO minifees still don't cut it. Nice bods! Too short. Cute faces! Still a wee immatured (except Ruth, Shushu and Lishe.)

So.. meah. I'm taking a hundred off my 3 months allowance and putting it into Syfen's fund (I got extras for being in my final year anyway). Here's the updated ticker :



......did the total just increased? ._.;
What the hell have I done this time??? >///<;;

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P/s : I'll try to take some photos of some of my boys tomorrow. Yar.

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P/s/s : Elder's brother, Grail, is only half past gay. He has a girlfriend he's serious with, despite gay inclinations with his bodyguard, Falcon. Woot.

Yeeeah... If I end up selling off (IF. I think I'll still want to keep them, even if just as hamster!Heads T_T;;; ) my SD heads (I think at least I'll keep Syfen's head. Then I'll use the F38 for Makira instead. And then I'll.... noooooo Ika!!! T_______T;;;;; *claws* )

Okay screw that thought. I doubt I can part with any of my SD heads anytime soon T______T
*luffs*

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Edit : Just wanted to let you guys know that I'm currently being a complete DORK and am collecting all the FFVII walkthrough videos this woman here has uploaded.

Seriously, I don't know if I'll even watch the whole thing, BUT, since fate doesn't allow me to play/complete my game, I shall WATCH. If anything, it'll probably make up how disappointing Crisis Core was. (I'm a SUCKY gamer. If -I- could beat stuff with one finger without looking while walking on my way home, it's a terrible game. That said, I refuse to admit that Crisis Core is anything but a playable movie.) I'll probably change my negative perception on the game once I try playing hard mode, but that'll have to wait until I play hard mode.

First, you drag in a superstar (to drag in more fans? it wasn't even a necessity!) and then you give us a MOVIE to play. Squeenicks, you'd better do whatever you can and let FFXIII cover your ass for you.

....OmgFFVIIwalkthruvideos. *convertsandburns*

I bought a pair of Soom NightFlower 14mm (I wish they made them in 12 T__T)
PLEASE. LET THIS END MY ENDLESS SEARCH FOR YELLOW EYES FOR MY DEAREST, LOVELIEST SD. Yes, Syfen my Migidoll Ryu is my dearest SD head, even if I do talk about Ikari alot more. And yes, despite the fact that all the pretty clothes I see, I want to buy them for Ika instead of Syfen >w>;;; But that's just a Fashion Problem :B

ANYWAY. About those Terrible Habits.

I have this horrible tendency to re-buy things that I like. Right now, I'm just flailing myself away from buying that poor Mano (female Jade) that's on DoA. Like. YES. REALLY. LINA. I do NOT need TWO Jades, no matter how much I obsess over that sculpt. Plus, I don't obsess over other Jades as much anymore cos I have my own to feed me my fix. Don't get me wrong, it doesn't mean that I've gotten bored of the sculpt (not yet D: *crosses finger*). It's just that I like mine better, because of how he looks and who he is. I still watch any Jades I find on LJ and stuff tho :D

It's like Sephiroth. You could show me Sephiroth photos, fanart, figurines (unless it's a lifesize Madame Toussad(?) wax sculpture, or some other large/larger than life statue /smex) and I wouldn't be all that impressed. But show me a walking, talking, JUST BASICALLY MOVING SEPHIROTH and you get a completely brain-denatured fangirl. Like Advent Children. And Crisis Core. I'D WATCH THRU GACKT FOR YOU, YOU SEXY, MOVING, SEXY SILVER HAIRED BITCH! It's all situational yo :B

Oh, just another thing I realised about Sephiroth. He reminds me of somekinda Makira-Syfen offspring XD Althought that'd be weird, the thought of Makira and Syfen together^^;;

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P/s : I hate my Zack Fair skin tone D; It's only good in the fact that I could probably blush it to any colour I wish. But it's so pale that it's the closest to white skin I've got, and I srsly do not favour white skin T_T Once I get Syfen's body I guess I'll blush him to that first so he could borrow it for a while.

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P/s/s : There's a modded Saint head on DoA. He looks more like a stern Bernard imho and I srsly wants. Though, what I srsly srsly want is a Bernard. I hope Dollshe would stay "down" until I've got all my SD bodies, or until I do not want to has a Bernard anymore.

... Yes I'm using my other boys' bodilessness as a reason to postpone getting a Bernard. And hope that this "Bernard" obsession would die before I cave in.

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P/s/s/s : Goddammit. I'm almost ready to change Ikari from an El to a Floy. Tho I don't really think it'll work. But I want Floy. But I'll just end up rebuying an El again (head/whole) T___T;; Dammit Floy, go away!! /flails

HAY GAIZ.

I mentioned in my previous post that I was going to bondchick_nett's place to grab this pair of purple eyes I bought from her, right?

Well I'm back.

And I has a purple wig too :B Dur.

I hate purple. It's such an awesome colour.




Please excuse poor Ika's shitty faceup T_T And no, those aren't the purple eyes I got him. I forgot to take pictures again after I put them in :B Oh dur.

I think I'll take pics of the eyes when I put him back into his red wig soon. The purple is awesome, but nothing can defy the amount of sex his reve wig has <3




Yes, I've posted it before. I just think it's such an awesome colour and I havent got many other pics of it XD Just wait till we have a body in hand. We SHALL HAS OUTDOOR PICS!

On a side note, I want these eyes in glass. Anyone?




I'm sorry, the jacket is so absolutely not him TwT;;;

They look so cute *3*

( didn't really work out, but it wasn't a complete lost. 6 pics approx 180kb )

Sooo, I'm waiting on three things right now.

1. Makira's Zack Fair minimee head, which I expect will come in on monday.
2. Elder's AoD body which hopefully will arrive monday too
3. Raleigh/Kato/Shiyu's F38 head to be ordered soon (yes character possibility in that order)
4. Shiyu/Ika's gold metallic eyes <3
5. The black and white inverted beanie set I bought for Ika and Syfen.

Okay so no, 5 things >_>
Only no.4 has not been paid for XD;

Actually there's a 6th but I'm not mentioning cos I'm denying that I'm buying too many things. BUY HAY, I'M CHEAPO D: /stingy-ass

I think the golden metallic eyes will end up in Ika if Shiyu doesn't work out. And maybe, just maybe, in Raleigh too, altho Raleigh's supposed to have half purple, half blue eyes. I swear not to try looking for Kato nor Raleigh's eyes until I'm sure I want to make one of them into a character tho.

Honestly, I'm a little worried about Makira as Zack too. It'll work, I believe it will, but eh >_<; there's this feeling inside me that he's trying to flee again. Damn travellers =_=
But if he goes, his head will go to Raleigh, and the F38 will really be Kato/Shiyu for Ikari. For now, I'm holding onto Makira pretty tightly tho Y___Y He was my obsession for the longest time when I first created him. Then when I created Syfen and Raleigh's world, I kinda lost him for a bit. Now that he's back in my head for quite a while, I'm pinning him down onto a resin body ffs! /flails

I keep feeling so upset lately. I'm not feeling hurt or in pain or anything, so it's not pms. I think I'm just mentally unstable. I'm not very nice anymore. Well, I'm kinda nice to people still, but I snap at things easily. Like, I'm so tired of holding anything back. If I see a chance to snap, I snap. And later on I'll probably feel like shit, cos I have a guilty conscience to match.

That side, I fell in love with a modded Gretel head D: Goddammit she's just so cute, although she looks so sad T_T But I dun wanna pay so much for a vinyl, even if modded T_T Outright, I'd probably pay about 65 for her, shipped. And she's past that now. /stingy.

My obsession for Bernards has also resurfaced again. Although it's possibly just a broken hearted fool's obsession who couldn't get over her ex. Bernard looks like my ex. I want my bernard, and I want to give him a lithe girl to care for. In my vanity and plain hopelessness, I would name the girl Evaela and model her after my persona, Lina Evaela A'rel 8DDD (whoever took that as my actual name, well, don't worry. it's as close as you'll ever get on the internet XD)

I'll probably name him Hakil or so. BUT, as I've found out with Shiyu, unless the doll is already in my hands (head at least), I need to actively figure out his story and background and let him play around in my head with the trio (Makira, Ikari, Syfen) or actively let him roam in his story. I have this thing that I cannot keep to new stories or new characters much anymore cos of the lack of time to develop or put anything down. It's really very annoying. There's a story in my head (a world really) that's really full of potential (and possibly more cliches as well) that keeps fading back, and coming back after a few weeks, with nothing new, and jsut known scenes repeating. I can't develope it past where it is, but I really want to.

I think it's cos I don't bother telling anyone about them. I used to tell a friend, UD, in the beginning. I even made an Agito-ish female demon character named Ysabel in her image XD But yeah... Oh. Makira is in that world and part of the story too. It's the world he ran to with his last boyfriend who belonged to my ex. His punching bag, Evan. Haha punching bag. Yeah, I made Makira lose him in that world so that's why he's even more emo than before. But he's with Ikari now, so that's fine for now I guess. Although I swear they won't last hahhaa. Maybe I should write or draw somtehing about them to see if they'll really work out. I really want the Zack head and their bodies now tho. To take pics of them loving together while the time lasts.

Okay, I'm done blabbing.

Oh, and I finished another mood icon. It's a Makira :D :

1. oshit. yo-f 01.

2. I wanted Maki Tsuyoshi for my OC Raleigh Kai Jaiden. Maki's apparently based on the blond character in this comic, Himitsu (?). Maki still looks yummy so far, but that manga guy looks just too uke and gay I can't imagine using that head for Raleigh anymore. Ugh.

Volks' finally coming out with more appreciable man headmolds tho. <3

Is it just me, or is Maki a slightly more tender eyed, frowny F38? I'm using the sculpt for Raleigh now, as I think Shiyu will not work out. But that's mostly because Squid (Ika alone means squid in japanese lol) is too obsessed with Mr Blue Serpent Makira right now. God they have such a volatile relationship, I have no idea what's gonna happen when the F38 head comes home.

If Ikari and Makira lasts, Mr. F38 will be Raleigh Kai Jaiden, Syfen's old long time crush (I really can't make anyone else for my emo empath D: He goes all "Yeah, okay. I'm fine with that." or "Mmhmm, okay. I can stay with this guy." or "Sure, we can be together, I guess." ...Bitch.)

If Ikari and Makira -don't- last, Mr F38 shall be Shiyu, Ikari's new love interest, a time travelling Japanese scholar born in the Muromachi age (I did a dork!research on the Japanese history timeline, and I think the Muromachi period is the best) and his two previous lovers wrapped all in one (Husband - Kato, Almost Husband - Edward).

I'm flailing around trying to find half blue- half green eyes in 14mm (like the kind that was everywhere on ebay back when I hadn't a head to buy it for). At least I know it exists, if not in that size >_<; But if Raleigh comes to be, well... I'll have to run around for the so-far non-existant half blue-half purple eyes.

See, colouring eyes is all fun and games, until you have to find them by hook or by crook D:
Worse comes to worse, I'll just print out some irises of that colour and stick them into my untouched blank acrylic eyes X33

I wanna get some Lauscher-Glasaugen eyes. I wish they can do half coloured eyes for me without asking for my head in turn. No, I don't want pupil rings, blended or not T_T that'll be a last try, seeing the price. Plus, that's not how I colour them eyes XD

Anyway, DoA was down for the longest time. After talking to trirose I decided to drop by Den of Demons, to give the place a try. Nope, no sale. I hate the place. Being truthful is one thing. Being completely rude is another. Den of Demons is like a place where it's cool to be as rude as you can about other people's dolls. Nope, no sale. Never.

I went to Resinality next. It made me feel better. It really has a potential for the next biggest doll forum, but if given DoA's weight and load, it'll be harder to keep up than DoA itself, seeing the extras that they do. If we're lucky, people won't hound both forums at once, but rather spend time at one or the other for a while, giving the two forums a balanced flow of online users.

That'd be otp, but I know people are more likely to open both forums at once XD I know I won't be able to swear that I'll only open one forum at a time :P

( Eeeeeeeyeah, some people might not like seeing doll heads, thus. )

This is a pic of Syfen as a character, drawn by me overnight, just because I promised a pic of him (well, the trio) in my previous post X3


He looks extra happy here I have no idea why D:
Sorry for the messy looking art!!