Ideal : OMG. Pretty Faces ;-;

Reality : OMFG SO FUCKING HUGE AND HEAVY TAT

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So yes. I need to confess. I'm actually rather scared of getting SD bodies for my boys. HONESTLY other than the price, one of the reason I wanted to get a Bobobie body for Ika is because IT IS LIGHTER. T_____________T

I'm so scared that if I spend this money on Syfen/Ika/Makira's body, I'll have to come to terms with just how HUGE they'll be, and how heavy >_< Rawr.

Plus, because they'll be huge-er, they'll generally be harder to pose >_<
/flails.

Even my housemate agrees, that she thinks I might not like SD sized cos the hugeness. Damn you fuggers who only makes pretty SDs and not equally beautiful matured MSDs D;
I really want Syfen and Ika to be complete. I really still want a Bernard. I still want an Anais/Jun/Shirou/Tsukasa. But. So Expensive. So.... HUGE. Y_Y;

I think I need to come to terms with this once and for all (noooo T_T). I'mma get Syfen his bodeau (whut? ._.) and share it between the trio for a while. Then I'll see how I like it with their size. I'll probably like because sewing for them will be just a wee easier, what with the larger scale. Plus the clothes people sell for SDs are generally nicer (size-ism! D: ) And... well.

I still want a Dreaming Shiwoo, Dreaming Yder, Floy and... and.... T_T;

IMHO minifees still don't cut it. Nice bods! Too short. Cute faces! Still a wee immatured (except Ruth, Shushu and Lishe.)

So.. meah. I'm taking a hundred off my 3 months allowance and putting it into Syfen's fund (I got extras for being in my final year anyway). Here's the updated ticker :



......did the total just increased? ._.;
What the hell have I done this time??? >///<;;

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P/s : I'll try to take some photos of some of my boys tomorrow. Yar.

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P/s/s : Elder's brother, Grail, is only half past gay. He has a girlfriend he's serious with, despite gay inclinations with his bodyguard, Falcon. Woot.

Yeeeah... If I end up selling off (IF. I think I'll still want to keep them, even if just as hamster!Heads T_T;;; ) my SD heads (I think at least I'll keep Syfen's head. Then I'll use the F38 for Makira instead. And then I'll.... noooooo Ika!!! T_______T;;;;; *claws* )

Okay screw that thought. I doubt I can part with any of my SD heads anytime soon T______T
*luffs*

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Edit : Just wanted to let you guys know that I'm currently being a complete DORK and am collecting all the FFVII walkthrough videos this woman here has uploaded.

Seriously, I don't know if I'll even watch the whole thing, BUT, since fate doesn't allow me to play/complete my game, I shall WATCH. If anything, it'll probably make up how disappointing Crisis Core was. (I'm a SUCKY gamer. If -I- could beat stuff with one finger without looking while walking on my way home, it's a terrible game. That said, I refuse to admit that Crisis Core is anything but a playable movie.) I'll probably change my negative perception on the game once I try playing hard mode, but that'll have to wait until I play hard mode.

First, you drag in a superstar (to drag in more fans? it wasn't even a necessity!) and then you give us a MOVIE to play. Squeenicks, you'd better do whatever you can and let FFXIII cover your ass for you.

....OmgFFVIIwalkthruvideos. *convertsandburns*

I'm late in meeting resinslave to swap the bodies in hand.

But.

Fuck this.

I still keep in contact with my ex's ex best friend. Apparently now they're slowly becoming best friends again. This troubles me how? Occasionally she brings her up.

Finally I've had one too many and it was starting to feel like she's doing it on purpose. She probably wasn't but I'd rather not have it go on. In my morning fuckedness, i asked her sarcastically if she has any other awesome news about my darling ex.

Nuke boms and another friend potentially lost.

She was practically the only person I could speak to regarding the break up. I'm so thankful of her. But her attitude... I guess it's because of online text... sometimes it feels as though she has this "Ahah. I'm better than you, see? -I- got over this" aura around her.

Basically, this is a fucked up morning. I'm sorry I woke up.

Edit : It was kinda brought up today cos I mention Ikari's (my El's) purple wig on my msn, and she was like "Omg. You're still clinging to her character." And then she proceeded to tell me something about said character and my ex.

Why am I still holding onto Ikari. I keep getting questioned with this. First of all, I started on making him, toying with the idea long before we broke up, with the intention of enjoying the doll with my ex. I was buying the boy in pieces, I can't very well buy him for her that way now, can I? I was at the point where if he was a complete hold, I'd gladly give him to her as a present if I wish so. Well now she's gone. I don't see the reason to stop this just because I can't share him with her anymore. Illegal character stealing issues? Hey, she's still using him with all her other friend's characters. I'm not taking away any rights or anything. Plus, it's almost no different from making a doll out of an anime character.

Does it upset her? You can bet all hell it does. I believe this upsets her, because it would upset me greatly if someone else had anything that is Makira or Syfen. I'd wreck up all hell maybe. Then why, do you ask, am I doing this?

For one thing, yes. He is my only link to her left. Like many of her other characters who came into my stories, he risks being dropped. It's probably just a matter of time. Syfen and Makira both know it. I'm not sure if Ika really understands where he is right now, but I know Makira is trying to protect him to a point. There's something of him I'm not willing to let go of yet. The thoughts of him makes me feel better instead of repulsing me, so for as long as I can, I want to pamper this man with whatever feelings I have left, until it runs dry.

Secondly... since I know it upsets my ex, I guess I'm using him as a shield for myself. For as long as Ika is here, I don't think she'd ever come near, or even look my way out of repulsion.

No more confrontations, no more chances. No more me needing to know how godawesome she's doing right now, no more reason for her to deal with me.

If she still comes around, I guess I always have my sharp tongue to 'rescue' me again.

Right now? I just want to sleep and forget this.

Haha forget. I'm becoming exactly the person I hate with all my guts. My ex.