Ideal : OMG. Pretty Faces ;-;

Reality : OMFG SO FUCKING HUGE AND HEAVY TAT

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So yes. I need to confess. I'm actually rather scared of getting SD bodies for my boys. HONESTLY other than the price, one of the reason I wanted to get a Bobobie body for Ika is because IT IS LIGHTER. T_____________T

I'm so scared that if I spend this money on Syfen/Ika/Makira's body, I'll have to come to terms with just how HUGE they'll be, and how heavy >_< Rawr.

Plus, because they'll be huge-er, they'll generally be harder to pose >_<
/flails.

Even my housemate agrees, that she thinks I might not like SD sized cos the hugeness. Damn you fuggers who only makes pretty SDs and not equally beautiful matured MSDs D;
I really want Syfen and Ika to be complete. I really still want a Bernard. I still want an Anais/Jun/Shirou/Tsukasa. But. So Expensive. So.... HUGE. Y_Y;

I think I need to come to terms with this once and for all (noooo T_T). I'mma get Syfen his bodeau (whut? ._.) and share it between the trio for a while. Then I'll see how I like it with their size. I'll probably like because sewing for them will be just a wee easier, what with the larger scale. Plus the clothes people sell for SDs are generally nicer (size-ism! D: ) And... well.

I still want a Dreaming Shiwoo, Dreaming Yder, Floy and... and.... T_T;

IMHO minifees still don't cut it. Nice bods! Too short. Cute faces! Still a wee immatured (except Ruth, Shushu and Lishe.)

So.. meah. I'm taking a hundred off my 3 months allowance and putting it into Syfen's fund (I got extras for being in my final year anyway). Here's the updated ticker :



......did the total just increased? ._.;
What the hell have I done this time??? >///<;;

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P/s : I'll try to take some photos of some of my boys tomorrow. Yar.

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P/s/s : Elder's brother, Grail, is only half past gay. He has a girlfriend he's serious with, despite gay inclinations with his bodyguard, Falcon. Woot.

Yeeeah... If I end up selling off (IF. I think I'll still want to keep them, even if just as hamster!Heads T_T;;; ) my SD heads (I think at least I'll keep Syfen's head. Then I'll use the F38 for Makira instead. And then I'll.... noooooo Ika!!! T_______T;;;;; *claws* )

Okay screw that thought. I doubt I can part with any of my SD heads anytime soon T______T
*luffs*

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Edit : Just wanted to let you guys know that I'm currently being a complete DORK and am collecting all the FFVII walkthrough videos this woman here has uploaded.

Seriously, I don't know if I'll even watch the whole thing, BUT, since fate doesn't allow me to play/complete my game, I shall WATCH. If anything, it'll probably make up how disappointing Crisis Core was. (I'm a SUCKY gamer. If -I- could beat stuff with one finger without looking while walking on my way home, it's a terrible game. That said, I refuse to admit that Crisis Core is anything but a playable movie.) I'll probably change my negative perception on the game once I try playing hard mode, but that'll have to wait until I play hard mode.

First, you drag in a superstar (to drag in more fans? it wasn't even a necessity!) and then you give us a MOVIE to play. Squeenicks, you'd better do whatever you can and let FFXIII cover your ass for you.

....OmgFFVIIwalkthruvideos. *convertsandburns*

I bought a pair of Soom NightFlower 14mm (I wish they made them in 12 T__T)
PLEASE. LET THIS END MY ENDLESS SEARCH FOR YELLOW EYES FOR MY DEAREST, LOVELIEST SD. Yes, Syfen my Migidoll Ryu is my dearest SD head, even if I do talk about Ikari alot more. And yes, despite the fact that all the pretty clothes I see, I want to buy them for Ika instead of Syfen >w>;;; But that's just a Fashion Problem :B

ANYWAY. About those Terrible Habits.

I have this horrible tendency to re-buy things that I like. Right now, I'm just flailing myself away from buying that poor Mano (female Jade) that's on DoA. Like. YES. REALLY. LINA. I do NOT need TWO Jades, no matter how much I obsess over that sculpt. Plus, I don't obsess over other Jades as much anymore cos I have my own to feed me my fix. Don't get me wrong, it doesn't mean that I've gotten bored of the sculpt (not yet D: *crosses finger*). It's just that I like mine better, because of how he looks and who he is. I still watch any Jades I find on LJ and stuff tho :D

It's like Sephiroth. You could show me Sephiroth photos, fanart, figurines (unless it's a lifesize Madame Toussad(?) wax sculpture, or some other large/larger than life statue /smex) and I wouldn't be all that impressed. But show me a walking, talking, JUST BASICALLY MOVING SEPHIROTH and you get a completely brain-denatured fangirl. Like Advent Children. And Crisis Core. I'D WATCH THRU GACKT FOR YOU, YOU SEXY, MOVING, SEXY SILVER HAIRED BITCH! It's all situational yo :B

Oh, just another thing I realised about Sephiroth. He reminds me of somekinda Makira-Syfen offspring XD Althought that'd be weird, the thought of Makira and Syfen together^^;;

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P/s : I hate my Zack Fair skin tone D; It's only good in the fact that I could probably blush it to any colour I wish. But it's so pale that it's the closest to white skin I've got, and I srsly do not favour white skin T_T Once I get Syfen's body I guess I'll blush him to that first so he could borrow it for a while.

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P/s/s : There's a modded Saint head on DoA. He looks more like a stern Bernard imho and I srsly wants. Though, what I srsly srsly want is a Bernard. I hope Dollshe would stay "down" until I've got all my SD bodies, or until I do not want to has a Bernard anymore.

... Yes I'm using my other boys' bodilessness as a reason to postpone getting a Bernard. And hope that this "Bernard" obsession would die before I cave in.

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P/s/s/s : Goddammit. I'm almost ready to change Ikari from an El to a Floy. Tho I don't really think it'll work. But I want Floy. But I'll just end up rebuying an El again (head/whole) T___T;; Dammit Floy, go away!! /flails

Ganked from jenovan (who is also a capricorn :DDD)




I'm not so sure about spiritual. Loyal, imaginative, idealistic is all there. Intuitive... maybe. Neg traits : All too true. I'm a lazy mood swinging sarcastic sloth. I tend to be hurtful-sarcastic when I'm annoyed or upset about something.


SECONDLY :::

Apr 15, 2008 1:48am AUSTRALIA - ADELAIDE Scheduled for delivery.
Apr 13, 2008 1:55pm AUSTRALIA - MELBOURNE Received and awaiting clearance for delivery.
Apr 10, 2008 10:55pm CHINA - SHANGHAI EMS Processed - enroute to final destination.
Apr 10, 2008 5:46pm CHINA - 200080 Item lodged

FINALLYYYYYYYYYYYYYY LIEK WTFWTFWTFWTF???????????????
/dies ELDER'S BODY WILL FINALLY ARRIVE TOMORROW DDDDD:

....why am I so restless and excited? He's not my priority after all D: /twitchwatchesJade >____>


THIRDLY :::

Zack Fair Minimee :DDD
He has this veeeery weird long chin XD It only looks weird from top angle tho XD
He reminds me of CLOUUUUDDDDDDDDD @A@



He's going to/supposed to be Makira >w<
Them are the blue green eyes I printed :D

Sooo, I'm waiting on three things right now.

1. Makira's Zack Fair minimee head, which I expect will come in on monday.
2. Elder's AoD body which hopefully will arrive monday too
3. Raleigh/Kato/Shiyu's F38 head to be ordered soon (yes character possibility in that order)
4. Shiyu/Ika's gold metallic eyes <3
5. The black and white inverted beanie set I bought for Ika and Syfen.

Okay so no, 5 things >_>
Only no.4 has not been paid for XD;

Actually there's a 6th but I'm not mentioning cos I'm denying that I'm buying too many things. BUY HAY, I'M CHEAPO D: /stingy-ass

I think the golden metallic eyes will end up in Ika if Shiyu doesn't work out. And maybe, just maybe, in Raleigh too, altho Raleigh's supposed to have half purple, half blue eyes. I swear not to try looking for Kato nor Raleigh's eyes until I'm sure I want to make one of them into a character tho.

Honestly, I'm a little worried about Makira as Zack too. It'll work, I believe it will, but eh >_<; there's this feeling inside me that he's trying to flee again. Damn travellers =_=
But if he goes, his head will go to Raleigh, and the F38 will really be Kato/Shiyu for Ikari. For now, I'm holding onto Makira pretty tightly tho Y___Y He was my obsession for the longest time when I first created him. Then when I created Syfen and Raleigh's world, I kinda lost him for a bit. Now that he's back in my head for quite a while, I'm pinning him down onto a resin body ffs! /flails

I keep feeling so upset lately. I'm not feeling hurt or in pain or anything, so it's not pms. I think I'm just mentally unstable. I'm not very nice anymore. Well, I'm kinda nice to people still, but I snap at things easily. Like, I'm so tired of holding anything back. If I see a chance to snap, I snap. And later on I'll probably feel like shit, cos I have a guilty conscience to match.

That side, I fell in love with a modded Gretel head D: Goddammit she's just so cute, although she looks so sad T_T But I dun wanna pay so much for a vinyl, even if modded T_T Outright, I'd probably pay about 65 for her, shipped. And she's past that now. /stingy.

My obsession for Bernards has also resurfaced again. Although it's possibly just a broken hearted fool's obsession who couldn't get over her ex. Bernard looks like my ex. I want my bernard, and I want to give him a lithe girl to care for. In my vanity and plain hopelessness, I would name the girl Evaela and model her after my persona, Lina Evaela A'rel 8DDD (whoever took that as my actual name, well, don't worry. it's as close as you'll ever get on the internet XD)

I'll probably name him Hakil or so. BUT, as I've found out with Shiyu, unless the doll is already in my hands (head at least), I need to actively figure out his story and background and let him play around in my head with the trio (Makira, Ikari, Syfen) or actively let him roam in his story. I have this thing that I cannot keep to new stories or new characters much anymore cos of the lack of time to develop or put anything down. It's really very annoying. There's a story in my head (a world really) that's really full of potential (and possibly more cliches as well) that keeps fading back, and coming back after a few weeks, with nothing new, and jsut known scenes repeating. I can't develope it past where it is, but I really want to.

I think it's cos I don't bother telling anyone about them. I used to tell a friend, UD, in the beginning. I even made an Agito-ish female demon character named Ysabel in her image XD But yeah... Oh. Makira is in that world and part of the story too. It's the world he ran to with his last boyfriend who belonged to my ex. His punching bag, Evan. Haha punching bag. Yeah, I made Makira lose him in that world so that's why he's even more emo than before. But he's with Ikari now, so that's fine for now I guess. Although I swear they won't last hahhaa. Maybe I should write or draw somtehing about them to see if they'll really work out. I really want the Zack head and their bodies now tho. To take pics of them loving together while the time lasts.

Okay, I'm done blabbing.

Oh, and I finished another mood icon. It's a Makira :D :

1. oshit. yo-f 01.

2. I wanted Maki Tsuyoshi for my OC Raleigh Kai Jaiden. Maki's apparently based on the blond character in this comic, Himitsu (?). Maki still looks yummy so far, but that manga guy looks just too uke and gay I can't imagine using that head for Raleigh anymore. Ugh.

Volks' finally coming out with more appreciable man headmolds tho. <3

Is it just me, or is Maki a slightly more tender eyed, frowny F38? I'm using the sculpt for Raleigh now, as I think Shiyu will not work out. But that's mostly because Squid (Ika alone means squid in japanese lol) is too obsessed with Mr Blue Serpent Makira right now. God they have such a volatile relationship, I have no idea what's gonna happen when the F38 head comes home.

If Ikari and Makira lasts, Mr. F38 will be Raleigh Kai Jaiden, Syfen's old long time crush (I really can't make anyone else for my emo empath D: He goes all "Yeah, okay. I'm fine with that." or "Mmhmm, okay. I can stay with this guy." or "Sure, we can be together, I guess." ...Bitch.)

If Ikari and Makira -don't- last, Mr F38 shall be Shiyu, Ikari's new love interest, a time travelling Japanese scholar born in the Muromachi age (I did a dork!research on the Japanese history timeline, and I think the Muromachi period is the best) and his two previous lovers wrapped all in one (Husband - Kato, Almost Husband - Edward).

I'm flailing around trying to find half blue- half green eyes in 14mm (like the kind that was everywhere on ebay back when I hadn't a head to buy it for). At least I know it exists, if not in that size >_<; But if Raleigh comes to be, well... I'll have to run around for the so-far non-existant half blue-half purple eyes.

See, colouring eyes is all fun and games, until you have to find them by hook or by crook D:
Worse comes to worse, I'll just print out some irises of that colour and stick them into my untouched blank acrylic eyes X33

I wanna get some Lauscher-Glasaugen eyes. I wish they can do half coloured eyes for me without asking for my head in turn. No, I don't want pupil rings, blended or not T_T that'll be a last try, seeing the price. Plus, that's not how I colour them eyes XD

Anyway, DoA was down for the longest time. After talking to trirose I decided to drop by Den of Demons, to give the place a try. Nope, no sale. I hate the place. Being truthful is one thing. Being completely rude is another. Den of Demons is like a place where it's cool to be as rude as you can about other people's dolls. Nope, no sale. Never.

I went to Resinality next. It made me feel better. It really has a potential for the next biggest doll forum, but if given DoA's weight and load, it'll be harder to keep up than DoA itself, seeing the extras that they do. If we're lucky, people won't hound both forums at once, but rather spend time at one or the other for a while, giving the two forums a balanced flow of online users.

That'd be otp, but I know people are more likely to open both forums at once XD I know I won't be able to swear that I'll only open one forum at a time :P

Epic Fail much, my friends?

The actual image belongs to nikitadacosta and it's from her LJ post here :
http://nikitadacosta.livejournal.com/26044.html?view=263612

I've asked her permission to post, and if she says no, I'mma take this pic down asap.

But for now : proof of my failure as a person, student, and well... sane being.




Lulz. Please.

The owner has replied to me, and all that's left is my word.

Epic. Fail.

Because I do stupid things like this :



It looks better on closeup tho.




Yeah he still looks like a gay faggot anyhow. But his eyes are open more often now. I guess cos his anger and discontent can hide the secrets in him by overwhelming them in his eyes?

If anyone else buys this head I'll bite them D<

*refreshes DoA a bajillion time for response even tho it's 5am in america*